Spectator.

Rachel. 23. California.

this person currently does not exist.

this is an imaginary life for an imaginary girl.

chubby-bunnies:

I’ve submitted several times here, and have always enjoyed contributing to such a special community, but have never articulated myself while doing so. I’m 26, 6’, somewhere between a US18 and 22, and on an average day weigh about 330lbs. I was a fat child, and then a fat adolescent, then a fat teenager and now a fat adult. I often felt awkward, unsure of such an unwieldy body as I grew up. (I was 5’7 when I was 10, 6’ by 15.) My body came as no surprised to my mother, but my father - throughout my childhood fondly blamed my fat for everything. It used to make me really angry. Angry that every twisted ankle during a basketball game, every cold, every broken heart as I was growing up was “because of my weight.” It made me angry as I got older every time he’d say “you’d be a lot prettier if you lost some weight.” There was no great epiphany, no moment of realization. I was not always happy with my body, but I wasn’t unhappy enough for it to change. Instead, I just got on with my life, worked hard, devoted myself passionately to my academic work, hobbies, friends and self. I insisted that people recognize that not only am I capable; I’m good at things. By the time I graduated with my MA and was offered a professorial job at 25 at a major University, my father had an epiphany - he realized that I am successful, pretty, comfortable and happy and being fat didn’t stop any of it. If anything, it taught be how to adapt, how to strive to love myself in the face of constant cultural criticism. I may not like economy class airplane seats, but I have a body that works and works beautifully. Websites like this are incredibly important. The realization that so many women don’t look the way we’re taught we’re supposed to, and are so beautiful, so strong, so sweet and funny and happy is terrific. Every day this website allows me to see people learning to love themselves, learning to use their bodies - to not be afraid of being a political body. The status quo is unacceptable, beauty is undefinable. Every fat girl, every day who gets up, holds her head high and lives her life without “waiting to be thin” is doing something incredibly valuable.

being weird is so much fun...

when someone talks to you:

when you and your best friend say something at the same time:

At a 5 star restaurant:

Laughing:

Talking to your crush:

Explaining directions to someone:

Flirting:

Giving your bestfriend a hug:

And people just look at you like:

and you’re just like:

If you follow this blog, you will finally achieve true and lasting happiness